Morning Readers!
New favourite artist,Chris Rice ! Love it. More later.
Xoxo
Friday, April 30, 2010
everybody needs to calm down now...
Hi Readers,
Man Its been crazy, I missed blogging but I hope I didnt lose some of you. Man, there was a lot to update, first lets just say kick boxing was freakin awsome but the next morning I definetly felt it, all over. Awsome. Moving on, I could not for the life of me keep a straight face when I went to the "Gym" , yes it is in quotes. I just had to keep looking down. Im sorry gyms are a joke and the people who need to announce they are going to the gym or kinda even more a joke. Im sorry, why do you think we care? If some of you just got upset, then were probably talking to you. Guys think thats the coolest thing to announce, o man, on facebook, which is more funny to me, that they are going there. Well congratulations, shall we through you a parade. I only go for the classes. No I am not talking down to anyone, no I am not better, its reality and I know some of you agree with me, get over it. Sorry to my bluntness but due to recent situations , I dont carry the patience in my back pocket anymore.
Anywhoo, Finally rented out the movie room, back to the future, its was awsome , had some awsome people over. (thanks for the subs boys ). What was great was last night I attended the premiere of the actress I was a stand in for. She was also in another independent short low budget film and it was delightful to attend, went to dinner with a few cast members from the film I worked on, and a special friend. :)
Much fun was had that whole night.
Here we go the weekend, Im just so curious as to find out what is going to happen, some more drama if I am lucky.........
A good friends going away party is saturday and I am baking, I hope he doesn't see this, my famous red velvet cupcakes, with a twist, o yes my friends with a twist. I am becoming quite the baker and I am sure my butt will prove it pretty soon here. I will be baking it up! Aw I love it.
Im trying to think of actual important worth while stuff to share tonight guys , im sorry, lets see.
Lets go with a little thing called faith and trust. Is it better to go and expierence life , knowing the possibilitie you might get hurt? Its kinda like should I drive because I could get killed any moment. For me as an example I went ahead, lived it, always wind up hurt, but I grew from it. I guess that is the point of it all. Experiencing things, hopefully we all learn from our mistakes, and do not repeat it next time. I have repeated many of the same mistakes, but why do we do that? Why do we do things that we know might hurt us? I guess some say live life, what happens, happens for a reason, some others could say, its smarter to not try it. I can agree with both sides, they both have valid reasons.
But if we didn't just try it, put down our shield sort of speak and go then how do we know if we found the right one or the wrong one, then you can walk away with a little bit more information and education on life. I was thinking today actually, why do we need relationships? Why do we have something in us that gives us that desire for the opposite sex. Well, we could go look in the bible and read about Adam and Eve, go to the source is my motto. God created us to not live alone, God wanted for the man and woman to have a partner in life, to be there supporting, listening, loving them, being their best friend, through thick or thin. He or she would always be there. gods plan was to help us, because physically he couldn't not be here on earth but in our hearts and minds and souls.
I think we forget really what relationships are about really. Again, My dears I am in no way an expert on relationships, but I have been known to be blessed with some wisdom. Street smart, def. not book smart, I fell asleep though highschool mostly....anyways, relationships in my opinion is a very special and unique thing. I feel we have forget or never have seen a true relationship, we see so many people argue, fight, someone cheats on someone, hitting, abuse, we see it everywhere.
That was not Gods original plan. This day in age everything is so ascu . When a man and a women get married, and this is more a religous side, the wedding cerimony is a act to God and people that they are committing to each other, they will love each no matter what. The ring is round I think because it justs conitnures. Rings go round and round. We get so caught up in our selfish ways. We forget everybody is created different. Certain things make certain poeople mad, as to where the other person may not understand as to why they got upset. Instead of saying they are wrong, I would ask them why they see it that way. Communication is a huge problem today. Texting......texting is from the devil. Im sorry if its for hey I just farted or hey im running late, thats awsome you own that, but when it comes to a conversation piece....no. I believe that is the most damaging way to converse. You cannot see the person nor hear them, its not rocket science. I see it as a easy way out of not having to face a problem, hey sweet I can sit on my butt and argue with my boy or girl. Or you could get off your but and go see he or she and sit down and .....wait for it.......hold on its coming........Talk. O snap, talking, I know its hard, we could just email or text or skype or carrier pigeon! C'mon on, sorry I am old fashion, I would rather get coffee and talk. I think that is one of my favourite things is to find a cute hole in the wall(Audrey cafe) and get awsome java and talk, about anything.
In my opinion, because I have made this mistakes so many times, to this day, I still catch myself, people say hings when they are upset, they are not thinking straight. This is when you both go cool off, go for a walk, nap :), something to where you can think straight, then come to each other and ask why they got mad, even if you dont see eye to eye, which in relationships you wont. God made us all different and unique. When we read a book or see a film, every person is reading or watching a different film. So I think to work on things you have to talk it out. We all have things to work on, no one including me is perfect, nor will we ever be. So for the people out there who have low self esteem(me), or think bad things, or I cant make my parents happy or my boss, or whatever it is, stop bringing yourself down. Find out who you are and love it, you have one shot at life, my Dad would say, do it wisely. We can only do so much you know, I find myself thinking, if people want to take things a certain way or think me a certain way, go ahead. I do not care. I know my heart. I know I love God, my family and my friends, whatever ones are still around. I know I make mistakes everyday, but I learn from them, maybe you don't learn right away but down the road it makes sense. Like when your parents say you will understand one day, or when you have kids....., yes actually some things I know understand. LIke a puppy I wanted one cause they are cute and fuzzy. Little did I know I was getting a child that I didn't birth and it cant talk, but other than that, its a piece of work. I love Urban, I do but dang he is work. It really is like having a baby around, and I try to help those who want them at a young age by saying , no, do not do it. because I was there, I lived through the experience, that why parents or our superiors know what they are talking about sometimes.
Everyday something happens that when you wake up, you really do not see coming. Right now I am working on patience. Yes, it is a hard one for me. It is interesting, to look at what made a person be who they are. Have you ever thought about that? Why do they act or think that way. Then when you get closer with them you sometimes find out. It is usually sad. When I come across someone who is the dork, O wait, ugh I keep talking about myself, sorry. I alway try and compliment someone who maybe doesnt get it that much.
I was on set one day and this girl sitting across from me says, "you are gorgeous", and I said well thank you, slightly taken back and then she said"your welcome, you are, you just look like you don't hear it as much as you should". She was right, not sure about the gorgeous part but I struggle with thinking highly of myself. Then I thought women do not get treated right by men, now hold on males, dont get all mad, men get mistreated as well, but seriously, watch emma or pride and prejudice. That is a gentlemen, yes I just pulled the Jane Austen card. If a man wants a women, and to help better find out how to treat her, read or watch the film, she will be blown away , one that you actually watched and B. that you took inituitive to show that you do care. For me yes I will always accept Tiffany's and a romantic dinner, but....when I see a guy take me on a date , maybe he doesnt have that much money , but seeing that he researched, planned, scheduled, that is so much more special, and I appreciate that way more, because he had to take......time. No one takes time to do anything for others that much anymore, I mean yes we do but, including me we all get wrapped up in our lifes, families, problems, which is totally understandable. Just today when a guy actually thinks, uses his brain, thats impressive, which is kinda sad........
Well I have to get up early so enough jabber, I hope that didnt affend anyone but, its my blog, my thoughts, I warned you :), Night
xoxo
Man Its been crazy, I missed blogging but I hope I didnt lose some of you. Man, there was a lot to update, first lets just say kick boxing was freakin awsome but the next morning I definetly felt it, all over. Awsome. Moving on, I could not for the life of me keep a straight face when I went to the "Gym" , yes it is in quotes. I just had to keep looking down. Im sorry gyms are a joke and the people who need to announce they are going to the gym or kinda even more a joke. Im sorry, why do you think we care? If some of you just got upset, then were probably talking to you. Guys think thats the coolest thing to announce, o man, on facebook, which is more funny to me, that they are going there. Well congratulations, shall we through you a parade. I only go for the classes. No I am not talking down to anyone, no I am not better, its reality and I know some of you agree with me, get over it. Sorry to my bluntness but due to recent situations , I dont carry the patience in my back pocket anymore.
Anywhoo, Finally rented out the movie room, back to the future, its was awsome , had some awsome people over. (thanks for the subs boys ). What was great was last night I attended the premiere of the actress I was a stand in for. She was also in another independent short low budget film and it was delightful to attend, went to dinner with a few cast members from the film I worked on, and a special friend. :)
Much fun was had that whole night.
Here we go the weekend, Im just so curious as to find out what is going to happen, some more drama if I am lucky.........
A good friends going away party is saturday and I am baking, I hope he doesn't see this, my famous red velvet cupcakes, with a twist, o yes my friends with a twist. I am becoming quite the baker and I am sure my butt will prove it pretty soon here. I will be baking it up! Aw I love it.
Im trying to think of actual important worth while stuff to share tonight guys , im sorry, lets see.
Lets go with a little thing called faith and trust. Is it better to go and expierence life , knowing the possibilitie you might get hurt? Its kinda like should I drive because I could get killed any moment. For me as an example I went ahead, lived it, always wind up hurt, but I grew from it. I guess that is the point of it all. Experiencing things, hopefully we all learn from our mistakes, and do not repeat it next time. I have repeated many of the same mistakes, but why do we do that? Why do we do things that we know might hurt us? I guess some say live life, what happens, happens for a reason, some others could say, its smarter to not try it. I can agree with both sides, they both have valid reasons.
But if we didn't just try it, put down our shield sort of speak and go then how do we know if we found the right one or the wrong one, then you can walk away with a little bit more information and education on life. I was thinking today actually, why do we need relationships? Why do we have something in us that gives us that desire for the opposite sex. Well, we could go look in the bible and read about Adam and Eve, go to the source is my motto. God created us to not live alone, God wanted for the man and woman to have a partner in life, to be there supporting, listening, loving them, being their best friend, through thick or thin. He or she would always be there. gods plan was to help us, because physically he couldn't not be here on earth but in our hearts and minds and souls.
I think we forget really what relationships are about really. Again, My dears I am in no way an expert on relationships, but I have been known to be blessed with some wisdom. Street smart, def. not book smart, I fell asleep though highschool mostly....anyways, relationships in my opinion is a very special and unique thing. I feel we have forget or never have seen a true relationship, we see so many people argue, fight, someone cheats on someone, hitting, abuse, we see it everywhere.
That was not Gods original plan. This day in age everything is so ascu . When a man and a women get married, and this is more a religous side, the wedding cerimony is a act to God and people that they are committing to each other, they will love each no matter what. The ring is round I think because it justs conitnures. Rings go round and round. We get so caught up in our selfish ways. We forget everybody is created different. Certain things make certain poeople mad, as to where the other person may not understand as to why they got upset. Instead of saying they are wrong, I would ask them why they see it that way. Communication is a huge problem today. Texting......texting is from the devil. Im sorry if its for hey I just farted or hey im running late, thats awsome you own that, but when it comes to a conversation piece....no. I believe that is the most damaging way to converse. You cannot see the person nor hear them, its not rocket science. I see it as a easy way out of not having to face a problem, hey sweet I can sit on my butt and argue with my boy or girl. Or you could get off your but and go see he or she and sit down and .....wait for it.......hold on its coming........Talk. O snap, talking, I know its hard, we could just email or text or skype or carrier pigeon! C'mon on, sorry I am old fashion, I would rather get coffee and talk. I think that is one of my favourite things is to find a cute hole in the wall(Audrey cafe) and get awsome java and talk, about anything.
In my opinion, because I have made this mistakes so many times, to this day, I still catch myself, people say hings when they are upset, they are not thinking straight. This is when you both go cool off, go for a walk, nap :), something to where you can think straight, then come to each other and ask why they got mad, even if you dont see eye to eye, which in relationships you wont. God made us all different and unique. When we read a book or see a film, every person is reading or watching a different film. So I think to work on things you have to talk it out. We all have things to work on, no one including me is perfect, nor will we ever be. So for the people out there who have low self esteem(me), or think bad things, or I cant make my parents happy or my boss, or whatever it is, stop bringing yourself down. Find out who you are and love it, you have one shot at life, my Dad would say, do it wisely. We can only do so much you know, I find myself thinking, if people want to take things a certain way or think me a certain way, go ahead. I do not care. I know my heart. I know I love God, my family and my friends, whatever ones are still around. I know I make mistakes everyday, but I learn from them, maybe you don't learn right away but down the road it makes sense. Like when your parents say you will understand one day, or when you have kids....., yes actually some things I know understand. LIke a puppy I wanted one cause they are cute and fuzzy. Little did I know I was getting a child that I didn't birth and it cant talk, but other than that, its a piece of work. I love Urban, I do but dang he is work. It really is like having a baby around, and I try to help those who want them at a young age by saying , no, do not do it. because I was there, I lived through the experience, that why parents or our superiors know what they are talking about sometimes.
Everyday something happens that when you wake up, you really do not see coming. Right now I am working on patience. Yes, it is a hard one for me. It is interesting, to look at what made a person be who they are. Have you ever thought about that? Why do they act or think that way. Then when you get closer with them you sometimes find out. It is usually sad. When I come across someone who is the dork, O wait, ugh I keep talking about myself, sorry. I alway try and compliment someone who maybe doesnt get it that much.
I was on set one day and this girl sitting across from me says, "you are gorgeous", and I said well thank you, slightly taken back and then she said"your welcome, you are, you just look like you don't hear it as much as you should". She was right, not sure about the gorgeous part but I struggle with thinking highly of myself. Then I thought women do not get treated right by men, now hold on males, dont get all mad, men get mistreated as well, but seriously, watch emma or pride and prejudice. That is a gentlemen, yes I just pulled the Jane Austen card. If a man wants a women, and to help better find out how to treat her, read or watch the film, she will be blown away , one that you actually watched and B. that you took inituitive to show that you do care. For me yes I will always accept Tiffany's and a romantic dinner, but....when I see a guy take me on a date , maybe he doesnt have that much money , but seeing that he researched, planned, scheduled, that is so much more special, and I appreciate that way more, because he had to take......time. No one takes time to do anything for others that much anymore, I mean yes we do but, including me we all get wrapped up in our lifes, families, problems, which is totally understandable. Just today when a guy actually thinks, uses his brain, thats impressive, which is kinda sad........
Well I have to get up early so enough jabber, I hope that didnt affend anyone but, its my blog, my thoughts, I warned you :), Night
xoxo
Thursday, April 29, 2010
thats that
Hello readers,
Sorry I havn't updated recently its been a busy week. A lot good and some bad. You can only be pushed so far you know? And I have been pushed way past my limit. Im so drained, life has a funny way of beating you up.
Something has started that Im not sure how to feel about it, Its good but hard to read and if your reading this you know who you are :).
Theres alot to write but im sorry youll have to wait till tonight, I need a shower.
xoxo
Sorry I havn't updated recently its been a busy week. A lot good and some bad. You can only be pushed so far you know? And I have been pushed way past my limit. Im so drained, life has a funny way of beating you up.
Something has started that Im not sure how to feel about it, Its good but hard to read and if your reading this you know who you are :).
Theres alot to write but im sorry youll have to wait till tonight, I need a shower.
xoxo
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
.....
goodnight,
I am going to say myself , had alot of wine, and none is at apt. but me tonight.
night
I am going to say myself , had alot of wine, and none is at apt. but me tonight.
night
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Im Going to feel it in the morning...
Hi!
So I have lots to say but Im watching whip it and it just started, but boy do I have good stuff for you!
xox
So I have lots to say but Im watching whip it and it just started, but boy do I have good stuff for you!
xox
snap, crackle and pop!
Hi!
I am starting to invest in baking! It was on sale, and I have the whole apt. to myself tonight, I am going to make rice krispies! Thats right, if hollywood wasnt so great and promising....... I would open up my own bake shoppe! It would be adorable of course.
Also real quick because im doing kickboxing tonight and im so excited for that, they kicked me out of the other 24 hour, it wasnt my fault the her head hit my foot in class. But anyways....Im leaving you with, the 99 cents store is awsome for cleaning supplies. I know leaves you wanting more doesnt it. :)
MOre later
I am starting to invest in baking! It was on sale, and I have the whole apt. to myself tonight, I am going to make rice krispies! Thats right, if hollywood wasnt so great and promising....... I would open up my own bake shoppe! It would be adorable of course.
Also real quick because im doing kickboxing tonight and im so excited for that, they kicked me out of the other 24 hour, it wasnt my fault the her head hit my foot in class. But anyways....Im leaving you with, the 99 cents store is awsome for cleaning supplies. I know leaves you wanting more doesnt it. :)
MOre later
Get er' done!
Morning!
Today I am getting it all done.....o yes my friends, you know when you say, Yes ill do that or we should do that, we need to hang out, Id like to, blah blah blah.......I'm finishing my room today cause its a awesome mess, I am going to watch a movie in our sweet theater room provided where I live that I have never tried out, tonight maybe some HTT.
Going to try Costco for some photo prints. Not too much on the brain, I just woke up and had some cheerios , so that's going on right now..... um had cake for breakfast some of my roommate's birthday cake so that gonna go straight to my butt.
Definitely want to go paint balling soon, also have a intense water balloon fight. O endless activities!i am making a list this summer of things i want to accomplish for myself, I am that person that starts something and sometimes doesn't finish. I bought a book, 501 must see movies and they are all the classics, going to try and conquer that, reading the whole bible, o man, getting back to the gym for classes. Love the kick boxing. I would like to go to a book store and educate myself on some things, also go get a library card, nothing will beat the libraries in New York. I miss NY . I am going in September and its going to be awsome. Well thats all for now, have a great one, update later!
xoxo Lady Lorelai
Today I am getting it all done.....o yes my friends, you know when you say, Yes ill do that or we should do that, we need to hang out, Id like to, blah blah blah.......I'm finishing my room today cause its a awesome mess, I am going to watch a movie in our sweet theater room provided where I live that I have never tried out, tonight maybe some HTT.
Going to try Costco for some photo prints. Not too much on the brain, I just woke up and had some cheerios , so that's going on right now..... um had cake for breakfast some of my roommate's birthday cake so that gonna go straight to my butt.
Definitely want to go paint balling soon, also have a intense water balloon fight. O endless activities!i am making a list this summer of things i want to accomplish for myself, I am that person that starts something and sometimes doesn't finish. I bought a book, 501 must see movies and they are all the classics, going to try and conquer that, reading the whole bible, o man, getting back to the gym for classes. Love the kick boxing. I would like to go to a book store and educate myself on some things, also go get a library card, nothing will beat the libraries in New York. I miss NY . I am going in September and its going to be awsome. Well thats all for now, have a great one, update later!
xoxo Lady Lorelai
And then there were none
Howdy hey,
I love talking to my Dad. Every things starts looking better and I am so lucky I have that, he has been the only guy who hasn't let me down...ever. He has a way of wording things that make my horrible situation better.
Life is short. Life is your life. Do you let someone else run it? Or do you run your own life. Heck yes I am going to run my own life and whoever doesn't like that can suck it. You know what I mean. You never know when it is the last time you will see someone. I am not going to spend time wasted on things that wont matter or people for that matter, ha rhymed, I love how i don't mean to do that. I hate to sound blunt but hey were in LA, thats what we do right?
The one thing about me is, I will never step on someone to get somewhere. It wouldn't be worth it to me. The people who act immature, hurt people to make themselves feel better, lie, cheat, stab you in the back, they have to live with that, they go to bed knowing they have caused pain to someone. I wouldn't want that over my head at all.
I am stronger than what has happened . We all go through hard times, we worry stress, so yes we can all complain about it, but you needs that, don't get me wrong I catch myself doing it all the time. Can I just take a moment to say I am wearing a guy's shirt that I bought at buffalo, if you don't know what that is, get out, and it is the most comfortable shirt ever.....ok, so yes, life is what you make it.
You will know your true friends and who is just two faced.
i have been so tired, stressed, hurt and the usual lately, heck its been a crappy one but also a good one. Things were finalized that in the end would have really hurt me and were destructive since the beginning. I so out of it, o these are some fun ones for ya, I was changing the t.p. roll, and I threw away the plastic holder and tried to use the cardboard roll, I also was trying to swipe my card to get into work past the security point and their are three lanes you can walk through, I decide to pick the middle one, Im there and its not working, I am swiping every direction, as this is going on, poeple are passing me heading to work on time, and I look down at the big ass orange neon cone in between my legs that I happened to just miss because those are hard to see........and the thing is out of order.
Don't judge me right now, if your laughing then it was worth sharing. Thats how tired and retarded I am right now, you when everything that could go wrong does, yeah thats right now. I t will be better, don't you worry, I have gotten through worse, I am a tough broad.
Things that hurt you in life, you need to get to the point where you can say you can just suck it, I am not going to miss out on a great life and waste time on you. Again people life is way too short. All the petty arguments, disagreements all that immature high school crap....it doesn't matter. it really doesn't. i need to find an awsome church in LA, I miss church and my relationship I had with God and the people at my church. I use to be a leader for junior high students. It was so much fun, that age is awsome, when a guy and girl are dating and they don't even do anything or talk to each other but it is known. They get all flustered over boys, I told the girls, I know you think its the most important thing to have a boyfriend but trust me, its over rated, they looked at me and didnt like me, I dont think for the rest of that bible study, but i brought up twilight and I was there Queen.
OK im tired, I done with this day and want to get tomorrow with a new outlook, a fresh start sort of way, maybe do some pool time, you know work on my time, not that i need to I am so tan already..................
Night
I love talking to my Dad. Every things starts looking better and I am so lucky I have that, he has been the only guy who hasn't let me down...ever. He has a way of wording things that make my horrible situation better.
Life is short. Life is your life. Do you let someone else run it? Or do you run your own life. Heck yes I am going to run my own life and whoever doesn't like that can suck it. You know what I mean. You never know when it is the last time you will see someone. I am not going to spend time wasted on things that wont matter or people for that matter, ha rhymed, I love how i don't mean to do that. I hate to sound blunt but hey were in LA, thats what we do right?
The one thing about me is, I will never step on someone to get somewhere. It wouldn't be worth it to me. The people who act immature, hurt people to make themselves feel better, lie, cheat, stab you in the back, they have to live with that, they go to bed knowing they have caused pain to someone. I wouldn't want that over my head at all.
I am stronger than what has happened . We all go through hard times, we worry stress, so yes we can all complain about it, but you needs that, don't get me wrong I catch myself doing it all the time. Can I just take a moment to say I am wearing a guy's shirt that I bought at buffalo, if you don't know what that is, get out, and it is the most comfortable shirt ever.....ok, so yes, life is what you make it.
You will know your true friends and who is just two faced.
i have been so tired, stressed, hurt and the usual lately, heck its been a crappy one but also a good one. Things were finalized that in the end would have really hurt me and were destructive since the beginning. I so out of it, o these are some fun ones for ya, I was changing the t.p. roll, and I threw away the plastic holder and tried to use the cardboard roll, I also was trying to swipe my card to get into work past the security point and their are three lanes you can walk through, I decide to pick the middle one, Im there and its not working, I am swiping every direction, as this is going on, poeple are passing me heading to work on time, and I look down at the big ass orange neon cone in between my legs that I happened to just miss because those are hard to see........and the thing is out of order.
Don't judge me right now, if your laughing then it was worth sharing. Thats how tired and retarded I am right now, you when everything that could go wrong does, yeah thats right now. I t will be better, don't you worry, I have gotten through worse, I am a tough broad.
Things that hurt you in life, you need to get to the point where you can say you can just suck it, I am not going to miss out on a great life and waste time on you. Again people life is way too short. All the petty arguments, disagreements all that immature high school crap....it doesn't matter. it really doesn't. i need to find an awsome church in LA, I miss church and my relationship I had with God and the people at my church. I use to be a leader for junior high students. It was so much fun, that age is awsome, when a guy and girl are dating and they don't even do anything or talk to each other but it is known. They get all flustered over boys, I told the girls, I know you think its the most important thing to have a boyfriend but trust me, its over rated, they looked at me and didnt like me, I dont think for the rest of that bible study, but i brought up twilight and I was there Queen.
OK im tired, I done with this day and want to get tomorrow with a new outlook, a fresh start sort of way, maybe do some pool time, you know work on my time, not that i need to I am so tan already..................
Night
Monday, April 26, 2010
raming my head through a ..
Hi readers,
It's going to be ok.,cmon I'm Lorelai. I am not going to back down due to stupid people that pods me off ,drivers on the freeway that go 55, drama. I am going to rise above this.
When all the you know what hits the fan that usually means something good hopefully is going to happen. Counting my blessings.
Tomorrow is a new.day !
more later !
It's going to be ok.,cmon I'm Lorelai. I am not going to back down due to stupid people that pods me off ,drivers on the freeway that go 55, drama. I am going to rise above this.
When all the you know what hits the fan that usually means something good hopefully is going to happen. Counting my blessings.
Tomorrow is a new.day !
more later !
Facebook is evil
I hate facebook, I really do. It is a drama trap, You do something then a immature dweeb does it too cause were 12. O he commented on that , she did that, why do we care? Who gives a crap too be honest. I probably shouldnt be blogging and im sorry for the bluntness but man, I am tired, money is a huge problem right now, but yes we could all go off on our horrible our life is, when it really isnt, I sometimes wish I was born in like caveman time and all your worries were which caveman will move this rock for me.
Later
Later
Wishing you were somehow here again
I miss my Dad. I miss when everything was ok, your biggest worry is when sesame street is on next. I wish I had listened when they said enjoy it while your young. I only just now understand that. It seems its hard to "enjoy things now". I find myself worried all the time. it is just part of my daily routine.
I sometimes feel disappointed in myself that I get to that point. Life is tough, its alot more tough when you feel alone, I am blessed to have a very supportive family, but even friends that I thought were very close, are not my friends anymore. When someone in your life hurts you or falls out of you life, do you just move on, or get hurt, mad? I guess it quicker to just except it and move on.
Today was my roomates birthday and I had fun with my friends. it felt nice to be around people who like me and dont think horrible things about me. i think that is the most disapointing thing. When something is going on that isnt even true, people spread things because it makes them feel better or trying to put you in their place. Why do people do that. I never understand why people do certain things. I try everyday to be a better person. I pray God to help me with patience, that is something I struggle with. Im not exactly sure why.
Somewhere in time is a wonderful movie, and also horrible at the same time, it is probably one of the saddest movies. When I listen to the orchestra version of the song, I immediatly start tearing up. It just fills my mind with memories. More of my childhood and how I use to see my parents everyday never thinking that one day, I wouldnt. Sometimes I get mad at how life is run. it feels unfair sometimes but God is with us and put us here for some purpose. I guess I am still trying to figure mine out. I dont understand why someone wants to hurt people.
I think the thing that hurts the most is when they know they are hurting someone and you always have that hope, hoping they will come see how you are, apologize, remorse, anything. I wish I could just screw it like they say to do and move on but I think my heart is too big. i let people in too easily, I trust them to much.
I never talk to my brother. I miss him. When I was little I use to watch him and want to do everything he did. I thought everything he did was brilliant. Even though he made me cry in the bath tub with a plastic shark.Thats all, I don't think anyone is even reading but its ok, its more for me again anyways, to anyone out there, good night.
I sometimes feel disappointed in myself that I get to that point. Life is tough, its alot more tough when you feel alone, I am blessed to have a very supportive family, but even friends that I thought were very close, are not my friends anymore. When someone in your life hurts you or falls out of you life, do you just move on, or get hurt, mad? I guess it quicker to just except it and move on.
Today was my roomates birthday and I had fun with my friends. it felt nice to be around people who like me and dont think horrible things about me. i think that is the most disapointing thing. When something is going on that isnt even true, people spread things because it makes them feel better or trying to put you in their place. Why do people do that. I never understand why people do certain things. I try everyday to be a better person. I pray God to help me with patience, that is something I struggle with. Im not exactly sure why.
Somewhere in time is a wonderful movie, and also horrible at the same time, it is probably one of the saddest movies. When I listen to the orchestra version of the song, I immediatly start tearing up. It just fills my mind with memories. More of my childhood and how I use to see my parents everyday never thinking that one day, I wouldnt. Sometimes I get mad at how life is run. it feels unfair sometimes but God is with us and put us here for some purpose. I guess I am still trying to figure mine out. I dont understand why someone wants to hurt people.
I think the thing that hurts the most is when they know they are hurting someone and you always have that hope, hoping they will come see how you are, apologize, remorse, anything. I wish I could just screw it like they say to do and move on but I think my heart is too big. i let people in too easily, I trust them to much.
I never talk to my brother. I miss him. When I was little I use to watch him and want to do everything he did. I thought everything he did was brilliant. Even though he made me cry in the bath tub with a plastic shark.Thats all, I don't think anyone is even reading but its ok, its more for me again anyways, to anyone out there, good night.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
I just don't know
Hello readers,
Off to bed soon to start another day. Today was hard, something painful happened. Realizing something hurts. When you find the true colors in a person. It does hurt. Someone you cared for, put time and love in, life is so interesting that way isnt it? One day it is great and you cant be happier, then later on it is the complete opposite.
Life is sad in a way. You shouldn't look at it like that but when your having your ho hum drum days, it crosses your mind. I am my favourite place right now. Grandma Peggy's and I was looking through some old stuff and I remembered back to when I was little. This one closet used to have coloring books and a huge box of crayons. I wish I could go back for a day to when opening that box was the greatest thing, and I was so excited. Life gets harder as you grow up. You never listen to your parents when they talked that way. Its so funny how, we want the opposite from when we were young to when we are growing up, no I don't want a nap now its like please just 10 minutes, please. Or I want to drive, I want my own money, now its like please put me back in that stroller, they have them for adults right?
It seems were never satisfied unless we look to God. He is what satisfies our needs and keeps us going. Life right now is weird to me. I feel like I am in this middle, I am trying to get to a point, I know what that point is but there are so many steps and then I trip which takes me down some flights. Cant we just take the elevator.
The one thing that is so hard for me, is when people walk in and out of your life. Sometimes forever, for a short time, few years, sorry I am getting all deep, but things I think about. I was watching "Lawrence Welk" with my Grandma and her face lights up. Because it takes her back to a memory, a memory that filled her heart with joy and took her back to a time when she was young. Its funny how things in life take us places, different songs, smells, senses. A lot of them I dont want them to take me back. Time goes so fast, and also I was thinking, spend more time on things that will not be here forever , or people for that matter. Yes I could be out with friends or what not, but I would rather watch Lawrence Welk with a great person. That is more important to me.
I seriously washed my car today, I vacumed like I have never vacumed before, dont think I spelled vacume right but you know, its going to be ok. Well Im done importing Gershwin into my Ipod, update soon. Night.
Lady Lorelai
Off to bed soon to start another day. Today was hard, something painful happened. Realizing something hurts. When you find the true colors in a person. It does hurt. Someone you cared for, put time and love in, life is so interesting that way isnt it? One day it is great and you cant be happier, then later on it is the complete opposite.
Life is sad in a way. You shouldn't look at it like that but when your having your ho hum drum days, it crosses your mind. I am my favourite place right now. Grandma Peggy's and I was looking through some old stuff and I remembered back to when I was little. This one closet used to have coloring books and a huge box of crayons. I wish I could go back for a day to when opening that box was the greatest thing, and I was so excited. Life gets harder as you grow up. You never listen to your parents when they talked that way. Its so funny how, we want the opposite from when we were young to when we are growing up, no I don't want a nap now its like please just 10 minutes, please. Or I want to drive, I want my own money, now its like please put me back in that stroller, they have them for adults right?
It seems were never satisfied unless we look to God. He is what satisfies our needs and keeps us going. Life right now is weird to me. I feel like I am in this middle, I am trying to get to a point, I know what that point is but there are so many steps and then I trip which takes me down some flights. Cant we just take the elevator.
The one thing that is so hard for me, is when people walk in and out of your life. Sometimes forever, for a short time, few years, sorry I am getting all deep, but things I think about. I was watching "Lawrence Welk" with my Grandma and her face lights up. Because it takes her back to a memory, a memory that filled her heart with joy and took her back to a time when she was young. Its funny how things in life take us places, different songs, smells, senses. A lot of them I dont want them to take me back. Time goes so fast, and also I was thinking, spend more time on things that will not be here forever , or people for that matter. Yes I could be out with friends or what not, but I would rather watch Lawrence Welk with a great person. That is more important to me.
I seriously washed my car today, I vacumed like I have never vacumed before, dont think I spelled vacume right but you know, its going to be ok. Well Im done importing Gershwin into my Ipod, update soon. Night.
Lady Lorelai
On to the next thing...
Good Morning readers!
I am excited to be going to see my parents in washington on July 10th through the 17th! Tickets are $190, so a pretty sweet price, my dad is great at finding cheap rates, this special ends on the 28th so good thing hes awsome.
OK, audition today or I would not be up this early on a Saturday. Not much to talk about since I am half asleep.
O there is one thing. What happened to phone calls? Anyone? I love how todays society has made it possible to communicate with someone in so many other ways you don't have to dial a number or go see them. Well americans are known for being lazy.
Update later.
-Lady Lorelai
I am excited to be going to see my parents in washington on July 10th through the 17th! Tickets are $190, so a pretty sweet price, my dad is great at finding cheap rates, this special ends on the 28th so good thing hes awsome.
OK, audition today or I would not be up this early on a Saturday. Not much to talk about since I am half asleep.
O there is one thing. What happened to phone calls? Anyone? I love how todays society has made it possible to communicate with someone in so many other ways you don't have to dial a number or go see them. Well americans are known for being lazy.
Update later.
-Lady Lorelai
Just a final thought...
To my readers,
I will not mention anyones name. If you choose to assume things that is your fault. Please don;t get dramatic , this blog is not a new thing for drama, I cannot stand drama, this has nothing to do with anyone personally, its about my life, experiences I have had.
-Lady Lorelai
I will not mention anyones name. If you choose to assume things that is your fault. Please don;t get dramatic , this blog is not a new thing for drama, I cannot stand drama, this has nothing to do with anyone personally, its about my life, experiences I have had.
-Lady Lorelai
Friday, April 23, 2010
Taking a step out
Hello readers!
It is the end of the day. Have you ever noticed how different you think in the morning and then at night. You wake up thinking or having some idea of how your day is going to go, and it ends up to be not even close to what you had in mind, at least for me. Currently I am listening to Claire De Lune. I love that song, it melts everything away.
What I have come to realize in my life, things get cray, emotions run high, we get mad, we cry ( ha I rhymed) , we fight, we find love, we get stressed, we lose our patience, but when it has gotten so bad, I come to realize, I need to take a step outside of it all. To look at the bigger picture in life, what is really important. Everybody is different, we all think differently, act differently, and the level of importance of certain things will always be different. When did we smile to a stranger. Or say hello or have a good day to those people outside of target or some department store you purposely exit the enter entrance to avoid them. What would happen if we dropped just a quarter in that cup or bucket or guitar case, yes we are all broke but if we did that, I bet it would make that persons day just a little more brighter and give that person a little more hope for their life.
When things are not going right and I am losing patience and being short with the people that matter most, thats when I am not putting God first. It is his reminder, letting me know that I am trying to run my life. It doesn't work like that. So I just break down and cry, for about an hour, just feeling lost and helpless, frustrated at myself, dissapointed, all these emotions that are not helpful at all, and I put my head down and say "Take it, please, Take it, I cannot do it alone". I tend to look to someone else for answers and it always fails because they are human, we all let each other down in some way or another. I forget to look above at something much greater and more powerful than anyone on this earth.
Yes readers, I love God. Now listening to memory from "Cats". Just that song, I love it. Anywhoo, my point is, try taking a step back. I live in L.A., where everyone and their mom wants to be a "Big Star"! Yes its in caps. And we all like to brag about ourselves and who been in who and I know this person. That is all great. For me its much bigger than that. God gave me a gift, yes I have many faults, I screw up all the time, but he made me talented in the arts. It is my passion and it is what keeps me going in this ridiculous industry. I dont care if I walk the red carpet, well Im sure it would be nice and it would be great to find out what kind of fabric it is, but I just want to share my gifts, my Dad told me, it is such a great thing to be able to perform because when people go see a movie or a play or musical for about 2 hours, they forget there problems. Knowing I could help people, to add a small amount of joy , makes it so worth it. Ever since my Dad told me that ( my dad BTW is the most important person in my life, and always will be, he is my rock and with out him, I would be living in a cardboard box) I looked performing a whole new way.
If you know me, I am a nerd, sometimes a fabulous dork. I am so ok with that. I make fun of myself all the time, it usually makes people laugh and thats what matters most. If I can make someone smile, me looking like a complete boob makes it ok. I have a dry sense of humor, I am very sarcastic but I think in a good entertaining way.
Now I am listening to a little Dean Martin. I should have lived in the 40's, I was made fun of a lot, for listening to Andrew Sisters and my favourite movies include Fred Astaire, Gene Kelly, the classics. I am ok with that. I am glad I dont listen to Lady Froofroo, or lets get down and grind each other kind of music. I like that I don't talk 5 octives higher than any girl should. I am glad I don't wear high heels everywhere, or Im sorry, get ready for the gym, getting ready for the gym to me is rolling out of bed and going, I still dont understand, hey gals lets cake makeup and wear clothes that we cant breathe in and look good for guys who only go to the gym for one reason and its not for the soft towels and fresh water.
Why would a girl be interested in a guy like that, I will never understand. O ha look at me, bitter much, Lorelai? Actually Im not, people think that, but I not , I just say it like it is, peoples stupidity will always amaze me.
Ok readers, I hope I havn't lost you. To sum it up, for some reason I have earned a lot this week, had some ephiphanys, and what not, you cannot change someone, they will do what they want. Ok tomorrow is my day off, I am excited about that! Update in the morning!
-Lady Lorelai
It is the end of the day. Have you ever noticed how different you think in the morning and then at night. You wake up thinking or having some idea of how your day is going to go, and it ends up to be not even close to what you had in mind, at least for me. Currently I am listening to Claire De Lune. I love that song, it melts everything away.
What I have come to realize in my life, things get cray, emotions run high, we get mad, we cry ( ha I rhymed) , we fight, we find love, we get stressed, we lose our patience, but when it has gotten so bad, I come to realize, I need to take a step outside of it all. To look at the bigger picture in life, what is really important. Everybody is different, we all think differently, act differently, and the level of importance of certain things will always be different. When did we smile to a stranger. Or say hello or have a good day to those people outside of target or some department store you purposely exit the enter entrance to avoid them. What would happen if we dropped just a quarter in that cup or bucket or guitar case, yes we are all broke but if we did that, I bet it would make that persons day just a little more brighter and give that person a little more hope for their life.
When things are not going right and I am losing patience and being short with the people that matter most, thats when I am not putting God first. It is his reminder, letting me know that I am trying to run my life. It doesn't work like that. So I just break down and cry, for about an hour, just feeling lost and helpless, frustrated at myself, dissapointed, all these emotions that are not helpful at all, and I put my head down and say "Take it, please, Take it, I cannot do it alone". I tend to look to someone else for answers and it always fails because they are human, we all let each other down in some way or another. I forget to look above at something much greater and more powerful than anyone on this earth.
Yes readers, I love God. Now listening to memory from "Cats". Just that song, I love it. Anywhoo, my point is, try taking a step back. I live in L.A., where everyone and their mom wants to be a "Big Star"! Yes its in caps. And we all like to brag about ourselves and who been in who and I know this person. That is all great. For me its much bigger than that. God gave me a gift, yes I have many faults, I screw up all the time, but he made me talented in the arts. It is my passion and it is what keeps me going in this ridiculous industry. I dont care if I walk the red carpet, well Im sure it would be nice and it would be great to find out what kind of fabric it is, but I just want to share my gifts, my Dad told me, it is such a great thing to be able to perform because when people go see a movie or a play or musical for about 2 hours, they forget there problems. Knowing I could help people, to add a small amount of joy , makes it so worth it. Ever since my Dad told me that ( my dad BTW is the most important person in my life, and always will be, he is my rock and with out him, I would be living in a cardboard box) I looked performing a whole new way.
If you know me, I am a nerd, sometimes a fabulous dork. I am so ok with that. I make fun of myself all the time, it usually makes people laugh and thats what matters most. If I can make someone smile, me looking like a complete boob makes it ok. I have a dry sense of humor, I am very sarcastic but I think in a good entertaining way.
Now I am listening to a little Dean Martin. I should have lived in the 40's, I was made fun of a lot, for listening to Andrew Sisters and my favourite movies include Fred Astaire, Gene Kelly, the classics. I am ok with that. I am glad I dont listen to Lady Froofroo, or lets get down and grind each other kind of music. I like that I don't talk 5 octives higher than any girl should. I am glad I don't wear high heels everywhere, or Im sorry, get ready for the gym, getting ready for the gym to me is rolling out of bed and going, I still dont understand, hey gals lets cake makeup and wear clothes that we cant breathe in and look good for guys who only go to the gym for one reason and its not for the soft towels and fresh water.
Why would a girl be interested in a guy like that, I will never understand. O ha look at me, bitter much, Lorelai? Actually Im not, people think that, but I not , I just say it like it is, peoples stupidity will always amaze me.
Ok readers, I hope I havn't lost you. To sum it up, for some reason I have earned a lot this week, had some ephiphanys, and what not, you cannot change someone, they will do what they want. Ok tomorrow is my day off, I am excited about that! Update in the morning!
-Lady Lorelai
Dont stop believing
Do something that makes you happy ,at least once a day. whether its rockin out in your car and you have the voice that could shatter glass,or indulging in Grandma Peggys red velvet cake ,( love the gma Peggy ) or farting and letting people find out for themselves !
Lady Lorelai
Lady Lorelai
Day #1/Don't rain on my parade
Morning!
Now before we get started, all of my blogs are from my perspective and my opinions, I never judge anyone nor do I think I am better than anyone, I am not. God can only judge us and get away with it. If you don't like what you are reading, don't read it. O.K., enough of that hog wash.
Yes that sounds simple....your life is what you make it. What I have noticed is emotions love to get into the way and fog up your mind.
I am just going to jump right into blogging, I doubt anyone will "follow me " but thats o.k., its really more for me anyways.
Emotions suck, most the time. They get you into trouble if the emotion is under a circumstance that is not supposed to happen. Lately I have realized some things, simple things really, they may seem like the obvious to you but our brains are all created differently. I have my issues, everybody has, things we think are imperfections and we let other people get down on us and we even get down on ourselves, but God created us for some reason, so we strive to be a better person to work and fix those imperfections, but we will always make mistakes, we are human, its what you do after the mistake I think that defines what kind of person you are. I mean don't get me wrong if you murder someone you are probably not in the right mind set and not a good person. You get what Im saying.
I make mistakes all the time, I really do but what I like about myself is I realize what I did and I apologize if i have hurt someone and try to make it better, thats all you really can do. It is like when a snake bites you have to suck all the venom out. I guess thats one one to look at it, I recently did something that hurt someone I care very much for, I then reached out to that person and it back fired. Yes it hurt my heart, but it is o.k., I will bounce back from it.
At least I know I tried, I actually tried again and still nothing. But that was that persons choice, doesn't make that person bad or anything, and readers please know , I do not judge, who am I to. Now that we got that out of the way. People are going to do what they want to do, no matter what you try and say, or try and do, you are not in control of anybody. Nor should you want to.
In relationships, if the guy wanted to end it or not want to be with me, my world would fall apart. I would not give up and try to have him come back, but now, why? Why do I do that? Why does any girl do that?
Low self esteem. Yes we are all victims of it. Especially me. If a guy doesn't want to be with me, then why should a girl want to be with him, it is wasted energy and emotion. Either way he or she is going to do what he or she wants to. Period. So why do we latch on and think he is the last guy in the world, guess what ladies.... he's not! Yes maybe you had great moments and you could list all the warm and fuzzies but that is what clouds us, from realistically thinking. If you strip away all that, then what is there. I truly believe you can tell how much he loves you when the crap hits the fan, you know what i mean. Anyone can talk say sweet things and yes we girls eat that crap right up! What does he do when you argue or are hurt, or he is with his "guy " friends. I recently ended a relationship, he said he didn't want to be with me, then fine. I am so tired of chasing after a guy who says he doesn't want to be with me. Again doesn't make him a bad person, maybe an idiot, but it just didn't work out. He needs something another woman can give him. Thats it and he is untitled to that. But to my ladies out there, let him go, if you done everything you can and he still has his wall up, then you don't want to be with him anyways.
I use to and still am working on it, try and figure it out and put different scenarios into the picture but there is no point. What happened happened. I also would worry that he would do something with another girl and he actually did so I am more untitled but that shows more what kind of guy he is, not what kind of girl I am. If he goes and sleeps or makes out with a girl the next few days after you break up then all more reason to let that jerk go. Let him go do what ever it is he does, who cares, again, you cannot control anyways actions, and the people who blame others for their actions are weak. No you are in charge of yourself, step up, take ownership of your own action!
I had a guy blame me for his actions, and also other peoples actions, O give me a break. You know what I say to that...... Suck it! God has already written your story, I have no control of anyone, I may do something that makes the person decide to do that but still, you decide to do it.
Well thats just a taste of my blogging. I will not let anyone rain on my parade, especially a guy! Hold your head high ladies!
xoxo, Lady Lorelai
Now before we get started, all of my blogs are from my perspective and my opinions, I never judge anyone nor do I think I am better than anyone, I am not. God can only judge us and get away with it. If you don't like what you are reading, don't read it. O.K., enough of that hog wash.
Yes that sounds simple....your life is what you make it. What I have noticed is emotions love to get into the way and fog up your mind.
I am just going to jump right into blogging, I doubt anyone will "follow me " but thats o.k., its really more for me anyways.
Emotions suck, most the time. They get you into trouble if the emotion is under a circumstance that is not supposed to happen. Lately I have realized some things, simple things really, they may seem like the obvious to you but our brains are all created differently. I have my issues, everybody has, things we think are imperfections and we let other people get down on us and we even get down on ourselves, but God created us for some reason, so we strive to be a better person to work and fix those imperfections, but we will always make mistakes, we are human, its what you do after the mistake I think that defines what kind of person you are. I mean don't get me wrong if you murder someone you are probably not in the right mind set and not a good person. You get what Im saying.
I make mistakes all the time, I really do but what I like about myself is I realize what I did and I apologize if i have hurt someone and try to make it better, thats all you really can do. It is like when a snake bites you have to suck all the venom out. I guess thats one one to look at it, I recently did something that hurt someone I care very much for, I then reached out to that person and it back fired. Yes it hurt my heart, but it is o.k., I will bounce back from it.
At least I know I tried, I actually tried again and still nothing. But that was that persons choice, doesn't make that person bad or anything, and readers please know , I do not judge, who am I to. Now that we got that out of the way. People are going to do what they want to do, no matter what you try and say, or try and do, you are not in control of anybody. Nor should you want to.
In relationships, if the guy wanted to end it or not want to be with me, my world would fall apart. I would not give up and try to have him come back, but now, why? Why do I do that? Why does any girl do that?
Low self esteem. Yes we are all victims of it. Especially me. If a guy doesn't want to be with me, then why should a girl want to be with him, it is wasted energy and emotion. Either way he or she is going to do what he or she wants to. Period. So why do we latch on and think he is the last guy in the world, guess what ladies.... he's not! Yes maybe you had great moments and you could list all the warm and fuzzies but that is what clouds us, from realistically thinking. If you strip away all that, then what is there. I truly believe you can tell how much he loves you when the crap hits the fan, you know what i mean. Anyone can talk say sweet things and yes we girls eat that crap right up! What does he do when you argue or are hurt, or he is with his "guy " friends. I recently ended a relationship, he said he didn't want to be with me, then fine. I am so tired of chasing after a guy who says he doesn't want to be with me. Again doesn't make him a bad person, maybe an idiot, but it just didn't work out. He needs something another woman can give him. Thats it and he is untitled to that. But to my ladies out there, let him go, if you done everything you can and he still has his wall up, then you don't want to be with him anyways.
I use to and still am working on it, try and figure it out and put different scenarios into the picture but there is no point. What happened happened. I also would worry that he would do something with another girl and he actually did so I am more untitled but that shows more what kind of guy he is, not what kind of girl I am. If he goes and sleeps or makes out with a girl the next few days after you break up then all more reason to let that jerk go. Let him go do what ever it is he does, who cares, again, you cannot control anyways actions, and the people who blame others for their actions are weak. No you are in charge of yourself, step up, take ownership of your own action!
I had a guy blame me for his actions, and also other peoples actions, O give me a break. You know what I say to that...... Suck it! God has already written your story, I have no control of anyone, I may do something that makes the person decide to do that but still, you decide to do it.
Well thats just a taste of my blogging. I will not let anyone rain on my parade, especially a guy! Hold your head high ladies!
xoxo, Lady Lorelai
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