Morning!
Now before we get started, all of my blogs are from my perspective and my opinions, I never judge anyone nor do I think I am better than anyone, I am not. God can only judge us and get away with it. If you don't like what you are reading, don't read it. O.K., enough of that hog wash.
Yes that sounds simple....your life is what you make it. What I have noticed is emotions love to get into the way and fog up your mind.
I am just going to jump right into blogging, I doubt anyone will "follow me " but thats o.k., its really more for me anyways.
Emotions suck, most the time. They get you into trouble if the emotion is under a circumstance that is not supposed to happen. Lately I have realized some things, simple things really, they may seem like the obvious to you but our brains are all created differently. I have my issues, everybody has, things we think are imperfections and we let other people get down on us and we even get down on ourselves, but God created us for some reason, so we strive to be a better person to work and fix those imperfections, but we will always make mistakes, we are human, its what you do after the mistake I think that defines what kind of person you are. I mean don't get me wrong if you murder someone you are probably not in the right mind set and not a good person. You get what Im saying.
I make mistakes all the time, I really do but what I like about myself is I realize what I did and I apologize if i have hurt someone and try to make it better, thats all you really can do. It is like when a snake bites you have to suck all the venom out. I guess thats one one to look at it, I recently did something that hurt someone I care very much for, I then reached out to that person and it back fired. Yes it hurt my heart, but it is o.k., I will bounce back from it.
At least I know I tried, I actually tried again and still nothing. But that was that persons choice, doesn't make that person bad or anything, and readers please know , I do not judge, who am I to. Now that we got that out of the way. People are going to do what they want to do, no matter what you try and say, or try and do, you are not in control of anybody. Nor should you want to.
In relationships, if the guy wanted to end it or not want to be with me, my world would fall apart. I would not give up and try to have him come back, but now, why? Why do I do that? Why does any girl do that?
Low self esteem. Yes we are all victims of it. Especially me. If a guy doesn't want to be with me, then why should a girl want to be with him, it is wasted energy and emotion. Either way he or she is going to do what he or she wants to. Period. So why do we latch on and think he is the last guy in the world, guess what ladies.... he's not! Yes maybe you had great moments and you could list all the warm and fuzzies but that is what clouds us, from realistically thinking. If you strip away all that, then what is there. I truly believe you can tell how much he loves you when the crap hits the fan, you know what i mean. Anyone can talk say sweet things and yes we girls eat that crap right up! What does he do when you argue or are hurt, or he is with his "guy " friends. I recently ended a relationship, he said he didn't want to be with me, then fine. I am so tired of chasing after a guy who says he doesn't want to be with me. Again doesn't make him a bad person, maybe an idiot, but it just didn't work out. He needs something another woman can give him. Thats it and he is untitled to that. But to my ladies out there, let him go, if you done everything you can and he still has his wall up, then you don't want to be with him anyways.
I use to and still am working on it, try and figure it out and put different scenarios into the picture but there is no point. What happened happened. I also would worry that he would do something with another girl and he actually did so I am more untitled but that shows more what kind of guy he is, not what kind of girl I am. If he goes and sleeps or makes out with a girl the next few days after you break up then all more reason to let that jerk go. Let him go do what ever it is he does, who cares, again, you cannot control anyways actions, and the people who blame others for their actions are weak. No you are in charge of yourself, step up, take ownership of your own action!
I had a guy blame me for his actions, and also other peoples actions, O give me a break. You know what I say to that...... Suck it! God has already written your story, I have no control of anyone, I may do something that makes the person decide to do that but still, you decide to do it.
Well thats just a taste of my blogging. I will not let anyone rain on my parade, especially a guy! Hold your head high ladies!
xoxo, Lady Lorelai
