Hello readers,
Off to bed soon to start another day. Today was hard, something painful happened. Realizing something hurts. When you find the true colors in a person. It does hurt. Someone you cared for, put time and love in, life is so interesting that way isnt it? One day it is great and you cant be happier, then later on it is the complete opposite.
Life is sad in a way. You shouldn't look at it like that but when your having your ho hum drum days, it crosses your mind. I am my favourite place right now. Grandma Peggy's and I was looking through some old stuff and I remembered back to when I was little. This one closet used to have coloring books and a huge box of crayons. I wish I could go back for a day to when opening that box was the greatest thing, and I was so excited. Life gets harder as you grow up. You never listen to your parents when they talked that way. Its so funny how, we want the opposite from when we were young to when we are growing up, no I don't want a nap now its like please just 10 minutes, please. Or I want to drive, I want my own money, now its like please put me back in that stroller, they have them for adults right?
It seems were never satisfied unless we look to God. He is what satisfies our needs and keeps us going. Life right now is weird to me. I feel like I am in this middle, I am trying to get to a point, I know what that point is but there are so many steps and then I trip which takes me down some flights. Cant we just take the elevator.
The one thing that is so hard for me, is when people walk in and out of your life. Sometimes forever, for a short time, few years, sorry I am getting all deep, but things I think about. I was watching "Lawrence Welk" with my Grandma and her face lights up. Because it takes her back to a memory, a memory that filled her heart with joy and took her back to a time when she was young. Its funny how things in life take us places, different songs, smells, senses. A lot of them I dont want them to take me back. Time goes so fast, and also I was thinking, spend more time on things that will not be here forever , or people for that matter. Yes I could be out with friends or what not, but I would rather watch Lawrence Welk with a great person. That is more important to me.
I seriously washed my car today, I vacumed like I have never vacumed before, dont think I spelled vacume right but you know, its going to be ok. Well Im done importing Gershwin into my Ipod, update soon. Night.
Lady Lorelai
