Howdy hey,
I love talking to my Dad. Every things starts looking better and I am so lucky I have that, he has been the only guy who hasn't let me down...ever. He has a way of wording things that make my horrible situation better.
Life is short. Life is your life. Do you let someone else run it? Or do you run your own life. Heck yes I am going to run my own life and whoever doesn't like that can suck it. You know what I mean. You never know when it is the last time you will see someone. I am not going to spend time wasted on things that wont matter or people for that matter, ha rhymed, I love how i don't mean to do that. I hate to sound blunt but hey were in LA, thats what we do right?
The one thing about me is, I will never step on someone to get somewhere. It wouldn't be worth it to me. The people who act immature, hurt people to make themselves feel better, lie, cheat, stab you in the back, they have to live with that, they go to bed knowing they have caused pain to someone. I wouldn't want that over my head at all.
I am stronger than what has happened . We all go through hard times, we worry stress, so yes we can all complain about it, but you needs that, don't get me wrong I catch myself doing it all the time. Can I just take a moment to say I am wearing a guy's shirt that I bought at buffalo, if you don't know what that is, get out, and it is the most comfortable shirt ever.....ok, so yes, life is what you make it.
You will know your true friends and who is just two faced.
i have been so tired, stressed, hurt and the usual lately, heck its been a crappy one but also a good one. Things were finalized that in the end would have really hurt me and were destructive since the beginning. I so out of it, o these are some fun ones for ya, I was changing the t.p. roll, and I threw away the plastic holder and tried to use the cardboard roll, I also was trying to swipe my card to get into work past the security point and their are three lanes you can walk through, I decide to pick the middle one, Im there and its not working, I am swiping every direction, as this is going on, poeple are passing me heading to work on time, and I look down at the big ass orange neon cone in between my legs that I happened to just miss because those are hard to see........and the thing is out of order.
Don't judge me right now, if your laughing then it was worth sharing. Thats how tired and retarded I am right now, you when everything that could go wrong does, yeah thats right now. I t will be better, don't you worry, I have gotten through worse, I am a tough broad.
Things that hurt you in life, you need to get to the point where you can say you can just suck it, I am not going to miss out on a great life and waste time on you. Again people life is way too short. All the petty arguments, disagreements all that immature high school crap....it doesn't matter. it really doesn't. i need to find an awsome church in LA, I miss church and my relationship I had with God and the people at my church. I use to be a leader for junior high students. It was so much fun, that age is awsome, when a guy and girl are dating and they don't even do anything or talk to each other but it is known. They get all flustered over boys, I told the girls, I know you think its the most important thing to have a boyfriend but trust me, its over rated, they looked at me and didnt like me, I dont think for the rest of that bible study, but i brought up twilight and I was there Queen.
OK im tired, I done with this day and want to get tomorrow with a new outlook, a fresh start sort of way, maybe do some pool time, you know work on my time, not that i need to I am so tan already..................
Night
