Hi Readers,
Man Its been crazy, I missed blogging but I hope I didnt lose some of you. Man, there was a lot to update, first lets just say kick boxing was freakin awsome but the next morning I definetly felt it, all over. Awsome. Moving on, I could not for the life of me keep a straight face when I went to the "Gym" , yes it is in quotes. I just had to keep looking down. Im sorry gyms are a joke and the people who need to announce they are going to the gym or kinda even more a joke. Im sorry, why do you think we care? If some of you just got upset, then were probably talking to you. Guys think thats the coolest thing to announce, o man, on facebook, which is more funny to me, that they are going there. Well congratulations, shall we through you a parade. I only go for the classes. No I am not talking down to anyone, no I am not better, its reality and I know some of you agree with me, get over it. Sorry to my bluntness but due to recent situations , I dont carry the patience in my back pocket anymore.
Anywhoo, Finally rented out the movie room, back to the future, its was awsome , had some awsome people over. (thanks for the subs boys ). What was great was last night I attended the premiere of the actress I was a stand in for. She was also in another independent short low budget film and it was delightful to attend, went to dinner with a few cast members from the film I worked on, and a special friend. :)
Much fun was had that whole night.
Here we go the weekend, Im just so curious as to find out what is going to happen, some more drama if I am lucky.........
A good friends going away party is saturday and I am baking, I hope he doesn't see this, my famous red velvet cupcakes, with a twist, o yes my friends with a twist. I am becoming quite the baker and I am sure my butt will prove it pretty soon here. I will be baking it up! Aw I love it.
Im trying to think of actual important worth while stuff to share tonight guys , im sorry, lets see.
Lets go with a little thing called faith and trust. Is it better to go and expierence life , knowing the possibilitie you might get hurt? Its kinda like should I drive because I could get killed any moment. For me as an example I went ahead, lived it, always wind up hurt, but I grew from it. I guess that is the point of it all. Experiencing things, hopefully we all learn from our mistakes, and do not repeat it next time. I have repeated many of the same mistakes, but why do we do that? Why do we do things that we know might hurt us? I guess some say live life, what happens, happens for a reason, some others could say, its smarter to not try it. I can agree with both sides, they both have valid reasons.
But if we didn't just try it, put down our shield sort of speak and go then how do we know if we found the right one or the wrong one, then you can walk away with a little bit more information and education on life. I was thinking today actually, why do we need relationships? Why do we have something in us that gives us that desire for the opposite sex. Well, we could go look in the bible and read about Adam and Eve, go to the source is my motto. God created us to not live alone, God wanted for the man and woman to have a partner in life, to be there supporting, listening, loving them, being their best friend, through thick or thin. He or she would always be there. gods plan was to help us, because physically he couldn't not be here on earth but in our hearts and minds and souls.
I think we forget really what relationships are about really. Again, My dears I am in no way an expert on relationships, but I have been known to be blessed with some wisdom. Street smart, def. not book smart, I fell asleep though highschool mostly....anyways, relationships in my opinion is a very special and unique thing. I feel we have forget or never have seen a true relationship, we see so many people argue, fight, someone cheats on someone, hitting, abuse, we see it everywhere.
That was not Gods original plan. This day in age everything is so ascu . When a man and a women get married, and this is more a religous side, the wedding cerimony is a act to God and people that they are committing to each other, they will love each no matter what. The ring is round I think because it justs conitnures. Rings go round and round. We get so caught up in our selfish ways. We forget everybody is created different. Certain things make certain poeople mad, as to where the other person may not understand as to why they got upset. Instead of saying they are wrong, I would ask them why they see it that way. Communication is a huge problem today. Texting......texting is from the devil. Im sorry if its for hey I just farted or hey im running late, thats awsome you own that, but when it comes to a conversation piece....no. I believe that is the most damaging way to converse. You cannot see the person nor hear them, its not rocket science. I see it as a easy way out of not having to face a problem, hey sweet I can sit on my butt and argue with my boy or girl. Or you could get off your but and go see he or she and sit down and .....wait for it.......hold on its coming........Talk. O snap, talking, I know its hard, we could just email or text or skype or carrier pigeon! C'mon on, sorry I am old fashion, I would rather get coffee and talk. I think that is one of my favourite things is to find a cute hole in the wall(Audrey cafe) and get awsome java and talk, about anything.
In my opinion, because I have made this mistakes so many times, to this day, I still catch myself, people say hings when they are upset, they are not thinking straight. This is when you both go cool off, go for a walk, nap :), something to where you can think straight, then come to each other and ask why they got mad, even if you dont see eye to eye, which in relationships you wont. God made us all different and unique. When we read a book or see a film, every person is reading or watching a different film. So I think to work on things you have to talk it out. We all have things to work on, no one including me is perfect, nor will we ever be. So for the people out there who have low self esteem(me), or think bad things, or I cant make my parents happy or my boss, or whatever it is, stop bringing yourself down. Find out who you are and love it, you have one shot at life, my Dad would say, do it wisely. We can only do so much you know, I find myself thinking, if people want to take things a certain way or think me a certain way, go ahead. I do not care. I know my heart. I know I love God, my family and my friends, whatever ones are still around. I know I make mistakes everyday, but I learn from them, maybe you don't learn right away but down the road it makes sense. Like when your parents say you will understand one day, or when you have kids....., yes actually some things I know understand. LIke a puppy I wanted one cause they are cute and fuzzy. Little did I know I was getting a child that I didn't birth and it cant talk, but other than that, its a piece of work. I love Urban, I do but dang he is work. It really is like having a baby around, and I try to help those who want them at a young age by saying , no, do not do it. because I was there, I lived through the experience, that why parents or our superiors know what they are talking about sometimes.
Everyday something happens that when you wake up, you really do not see coming. Right now I am working on patience. Yes, it is a hard one for me. It is interesting, to look at what made a person be who they are. Have you ever thought about that? Why do they act or think that way. Then when you get closer with them you sometimes find out. It is usually sad. When I come across someone who is the dork, O wait, ugh I keep talking about myself, sorry. I alway try and compliment someone who maybe doesnt get it that much.
I was on set one day and this girl sitting across from me says, "you are gorgeous", and I said well thank you, slightly taken back and then she said"your welcome, you are, you just look like you don't hear it as much as you should". She was right, not sure about the gorgeous part but I struggle with thinking highly of myself. Then I thought women do not get treated right by men, now hold on males, dont get all mad, men get mistreated as well, but seriously, watch emma or pride and prejudice. That is a gentlemen, yes I just pulled the Jane Austen card. If a man wants a women, and to help better find out how to treat her, read or watch the film, she will be blown away , one that you actually watched and B. that you took inituitive to show that you do care. For me yes I will always accept Tiffany's and a romantic dinner, but....when I see a guy take me on a date , maybe he doesnt have that much money , but seeing that he researched, planned, scheduled, that is so much more special, and I appreciate that way more, because he had to take......time. No one takes time to do anything for others that much anymore, I mean yes we do but, including me we all get wrapped up in our lifes, families, problems, which is totally understandable. Just today when a guy actually thinks, uses his brain, thats impressive, which is kinda sad........
Well I have to get up early so enough jabber, I hope that didnt affend anyone but, its my blog, my thoughts, I warned you :), Night
xoxo
