Hi all to are reading this,
Probably all 2 of you. It's really more for me because I like sharing my thoughts and writing,so why not right?I always go back to the same topic specially right now. When something in your life changes,I think it's Gods reminder to step back. Maybe it wasn't supposed to be or happen. When something goes terribly wrong and you are left hurt, I believe that is God saying,I know it is hurting but you'll see why. I have something better for you, and you need to make me the center of it. A reminder. I have been down this so many times and God is like why, why do you keep doing this to yourself, and I myself and like,why the crap do you let this happen. I'm done. I'm done giving people the chance to hurt me,fail me,disapoint me,and neglect me. I am not one for confrontation,argueing not for me, I have such a huge heart and I am proud to say I get it from my Father. With that greatness comes heart ache because like my Dad he has done so so may things that he never gets acknowledged for and it breaks his heart. It breaks my heart because I am there listening to him, hearing and seeing the pain in his face. He is the only Man I have met that really is selflesssness. If you have get the great chance at ever meeting my Father, he is one in a million. Literally. I honestly think he is the last one that only cares for his family and will literally sacrifice EVERYTHING for them, even if they hurt him or ignore him, or even don't give him the respect he deserves. And let me tell you he deserves A lot. He literally has slaved for my family, and unfortuantly he hurts inside. He does not get the action of Love shown to him that he Damn well deserves. I am tired of seeing this hero hurt. My Dad has always been my hero, not once , and I can say this honestly has he let me down. Never, not once. Who in your life can you say that about. I count my lucky stars and thank God I was blessed to have a Father like mine. There are many things I could write that should not happen to my Dad. But people are who they are, only they in their heart can change. As harsh as it sounds when will people realize it, when he's gone?
Thanks to my Dad he has taught me to keep my bar high. I am a very strong women because of him. I figured out I think one thing I can do to make his heart truly happy. To somewhat and not even close give back a little what he has given me. To be with a man he aproves of and knows will take care of his daughter. I am tired of worrying about the guy, if he will leave more or Im not worth the fight, what guy would strive and do as much as possible to meet my bar just so he can be with me, and I think to myself, why do I care? If he leaves me then so be it, his loss. Thats goes for a lot of women. Man do we cut ourselves short and for what? So we can feel good for a little bit but deep down we know its not right. Yes all the romantic crap feels awsome and we are more emotional but how long is that going to last? All guys can do that, why? Cause they think with the below the belt part of their brain. O yes I am getting very honest here,you dont like it,suck it.
Ladies,do you want a Man who can make you feel pleasured and adored and loved,but the surface stuff? LIke saying he cares so much about you and misses you, and its been two days after you met! What the crap, the guy doesnt know you, you dont really know a person till after not even a year. Yes it all sounds good, but show me. Eliza Doolittle, says it very well, " Don't talk of love burning above if your in love, Show me"! If you don't know what thats from, I am sorry and you should figure it out. She also starts by saying," Words,words,words, Im so sick of words, I get words all day through first from him now from you,is that all you blyders can do"? It's true,Ladies look at the actions and the consistency, and if any of my ex boyfriends read this its not because of you well I have you to know what I am talking about,but yeah its not all about you. Guys can say anything,great you can talk,but can you always be there for me or can you get to me on your watch. Can you provide for a family for me?Can you actually be a Man? Which I think many people don't really know that rue meaning and definition of the word. All I have and know of what a man is from my DAd, and Jane Austen Novels.
At my work, I was seating our clients and the gentlemen stood up when his Lady came to the table.....I'll say it again, he stood up when a lady approached the table. I would've made out with him on the spot but one I was at work and two he was like 65 so we wont go there,but you get the point. You shown me a man who does that and consistently not to just look good for a month, to charm you. Im so done with that,be who you are,if your an a hole well at least own up to it. BUt ladies we are to blame because we are aware of it and I let it happen all the time. When does it end,when do we stop letting ourselves get hurt.
It needs to come from within. And side note again this is always just my opinion,you can disagree all you want I don't care. Start your own blog.
It needs to start with being honest with yourself. Do you think you are worth a guy who treats you like crap, or makes you feel good in the beginning but those flags come up, which we ignore that tell us, no no back away. Or do we stand up and decide I am worth more than this, no matter what my back ground is,no matter where I come from or what I do, or said, or hurt, or what have you. I don't care if you came from a trailor park, don't let where you came from define who you are. Only who can do that and don't let anyone try and take that away from you.
If you say no to a guy and lay it out what you want,how you feel, what you expect, and he gives up and screws the next girl, then so be it, he did you a favor by showing his true self earlier. Than to have to go through the pain as time goes on. I garrentee when you say that to a guy and keep your bar high,even though your doubtful inside (which you wont show),see what he does,stick those guns ladies and yes we have them. See what the basterd does, if he stays and fights for you and says I will wait and show you, then you might have something. It is in the actions, that's all we have to go after. A lot of guys always told me, well you expect to much, I use to feel bad about that. Now I say no you just can't live up to my standards,your not worthy of me. Bottom line if he loves you,truly,and you love him back,you can't shake him. He won't leave, he won't because he can't for a second imagine his life without you in it.
~Night
