So my Title actually has nothing to do with what I am going to write about. Life is so many things,a path, a roller coaster, an opportunity, a discover,a blessing, a leap of faith, a pin ball machine and so much more. People weave in and out of your life and there are so many,many things I wish I understood that I will probably never get to find out nor will I understand. The human behavior is so interesting to me. Humans can hurt you, love you, frustrate you, O man the list goes on and on. God has so many people come in and out of our lives for a reason. Some people actually stay in your life,that Man who can't imagine a single second with out you in his life. I have yet to find that. It is such a special thing. I work at a restaurant currently and many older people dine there. There was this one older couple and it just almost made me to cry when I saw the older gentlemen sit right next to her as if on their first date and look in her eyes as he did the first time he saw her. Then when they were leaving they were walking slowly of course but he goes to hold her hand. Immediately I said to myself I want that. It is so rare nowadays to see love like that today. Couples,husband and wife's, that are so IN love with each other. Today you just see selfishness,and what else I can get, and who else could be out there instead of seeing whats right in front of you and being so full-filled and happy with who you were blessed with. My parents have these dear older couple that live across the street from them and when I was visiting we went and had dinner at their home and he sat at one end and his wife sat at the other,and I am an observer I like to observe everything and I was just watching him, and he was looking, more gazing at his wife across the table. Looking at her, and you could see how much he was in love with her, the same love as when he first met her, that he was still thinking Im so lucky she chose me. I want that. I have never really experienced that type of love at all. The love that lasts and I guess you could say we all want that. I wan to stay positive and hope I will meet that man who will look at me when I am 80 and he wont see wrinkles or saggy what have you but will see my heart and see me as he did when he first met me. I read something that I really liked. The author who I was told from a reliable source informed me of his actions and how he cheated on his wife but before wrote a whole book on love and all that but one thing at least I think is real, he said,"Don't be afraid to lose him. If he truly loves you, he is going nowhere".
It's true. So many men and woman, when its hard or something that isn't easy or they have to fight they just leave. well then you don't love that person, you can imagine your life without them so your not the one for me. You need to stand up for yourself. Also in this book he wrote something that I think is true, raise your bar high, have high standards, if the man loves you he will want to reach those, if he doesn't then he doesn't care for you that way. You shouldn't be mad to feel bad if you have standards. I will admit I do have standards. Many people might not agree with me but I don't care this is my blog. A women needs a provider, a man that will take care of her, he will put her first or the family. Why the crap is that such a bad thing to think. That's how I was raised to think and expect and it's not hard for to expect a man to actually be a Man. Women are there for men in other ways, but I believe if is truly a man he wants to be the provider,to take care of the one he loves. To be stable.
There is also this sweet couple not as old as the other they can still walk over 15 miles per hour, but the husband was telling me how they met and he said I knew I was going to marry her the minute I saw her and they have been married I think for about 40 years. Where did all those type of Men go,what rock are they under and how do I get there.
My Daddy always said the man needs to have consistency. It's true. Ladies.....I bet you dated many guys that in the beginning were amazing ,said the right thing,did cute things,but then as months when on they slowly started to fade and he wasn't doing them anymore. No, if he loves you he will want to do them always. Any guy is capable of doing the cute stuff but pull that away and what's underneath a guy who wants to just use you or the man that does that because it makes him happy to see you smile, his mission is to make you happy and to be with you and he will fight for you. I need a fighter. I always wanted a man who if I said no to that wont stop him, you know in a good way not your a crazy weird man and give me a restraining order. A man that will still do it even if you say I don't want you too or you don't need to. He will still do it because he knows its right and its what you do truly want. Guys I don't know if you noticed but we don't always know what we want. I hate to admit it but its the thing like when we say were fine but were not, I don't know but c'mon guys do ridiculous stuff too but anyway we want the guy to take charge and make the decision. God created woman to be strong and the man needs to be stronger in the ways the woman can't.
Everything is so un personal these days. It's all technical. Maybe its because I was brought up on Jane Austen books and films and love all the victorian time piece, but what happened to letters. I love writing letters. How excited do you get when you open your mail box and you see bills,bills, and o yes one more bill. BUt what when you receive a letter from a friend or a family member, you get all excited, or at least I do. I think letters are more romantic in a mail box. Yes it's more difficult, but not really,it really shows when a guy takes time and mails you a letter.
I am just going to end on this, remember this is just my personal opinion. My thoughts to go out into this technical thing and into this void.
