A new wekk, and wondering what things it will bring. Lately I have been happy. I am still trying to figure out why. I have some ideas , but I am still juggling them! I think one of the biggest reasons is I am finding out who I am and owning it. If someone doesn't like it, I don't care and it is their loss. I won't get mad, it's their opinion. Just like oil and water , things just don't mix.
I also feel great when I get things acomplished. The things I always talk about doing and never do. It is a beautiful day today! I hope you enjoy how much I bounce around in my blogs. Another thing I think is I am trying to work on my relationship with God. It use to be so strong and as we all do, I strayed away. Putting myslef first, only thinking of myself, I was trying to be in control of my life and it really isn't about that. i would always get down on myself or think I wasn't doing anything with my time if I wasn't working on my career every second, but you have to enjoy other things in life that God gave us. Friends, I have hung out with my roomates and their friends and I met really great people. I think that is great, when you make that connection with someone that you can all hang out with in the summer or movie nights!
My friend, good friend is about to have a baby and her baby shower is coming up. I started thinking of how amazing that is. She is going to bring a new life into the world and nurture it and love on it and will do anything for it, sorry her. She will always put the baby first. Before herself, always. That is such a huge sacrifice, and such a blessing to be able to do that. Her and her husband are about to embark on a whole new adventure and thats so exciting. Now me on the other hand, I cannot even handle Urban. My 2 year old puppy. He drives me crazy, crazy, but I love him, he is my baby. Not that those comparisons are even near being close to each other, but you get where I am going with this.
I am very excited for summer! I am visiting the parents in July for a week and it is going to be beautiful in Washington. I love nature, I feel like I am hanging out with God, I am closer to him. When life is getting crazy and I am losing my mind and forgetting who I am , I try and go to the beach or a lake, somewhere where it is not man made. I just sit, and look and think. I believe you really connect with yourself and your maker. Things I am pushing myself to work on is patience, which i already mentioned and my finances. O boy, do I need to finance better. Tithing , is something I don't do on a regular basis. I need to start attending a church in LA, but I have not yet found one. i was made fun of for impulse buying which is true but I always come to my senses after return it, at least I acknowledge it. P.S. I am trying to bring more color to my life, so sorry for the color happy.
Today and I getting her done. Errands my friends, errands. All those things I mentioned I keep putting off, not anymore. You really have to be disciplined if you want to get anywhere, I have noticed. For example my career. Since moving to LA, I have been a very hard worker. Always working when I was not working. Something started distracting me, not in a bad way but I lost sight of what I wanted and what my original plan was. That distraction is not one anymore, it is hard but I like that I am getting back on my path. When you go into a relationship I believe you both need to be string with your life and what you want but also let the other know your there, thinking of them and looking forward to the next time you see them. I think it is important that even though you are not physically with them, you still know they are there.
I apologize for not blogging. I blog in the am and then the pm . This weekend was great but busy. A great friend left yesterday for the summer so we were all getting out time in with him. But do not worry, we have not seen the last of him! Another thing that is helping with my stress, I know, random, but the music I listen to, I have been exploring classical music. I love it, I love how you can see a picture through the movement of the piece. It is like a story, and you go through the story as you listen. I know in todays world we are all supposed to listen to crap, but if you go back way back, that is where it started, that is music to my ears, the music, movies, people, who have left this world but their talent had stayed behind even till this day, that is when you know they were wonderful, they had talent, and it was classic. Do you think we will give a crap about lady gaga or whoever is famous due to technology in 10 years? I won't, but look at Frank, Martin, and my favourite "Audrey", yes she gets quotes. They have been with us for God knows how long.
Well the day is beautiful and waiting for me to embrace it. I am off but more later this evening and back to my regular blogging schedule. Pick a flower today and give it to someone who needs it!
xoxo,
Lady Lorelai
