Morning Readers!
I am sick , I believe, I got the whole sore throat thing, throbbing headache, muscle ache but that could be due to kickboxing. I believe I am on stress over load, I am sorry I did not update last night. Man, a lot of stuff happened. Life changes all the time and I need to learn how to change with it, I guess. Well I need lots of tea, with honey that I do not have. Cough drops that I need too get, and sleep, much needed sleep.
I work a lot this weekend at my work, I am excited. That was random, anywhoo. The parents fly in saturday so that should be fun......for about a day. Mother's Day. Even if you "hate" your mom, which noone really does I believe, do something special for her. Call her, thank her for birthing you (ew), send flowers. I love flowers, I wished they didn't die. When I have money I would love to always have my rooms filled with flowers. Audrey did that in her home and she would actually have flowers set up in her hotel rooms to make her feel more at home. O Audrey. Such style. You do not see style like that anymore. Back then people carried themselves so much more respectful. They took time on a lot, such as getting ready, dinner, events, it was all about the presentation. Love it.
I do not like drinking straight tea. I don't care for it. Life is funny isn't. You have to love feelings and how they throw you around all the time. You think one way then you think another. Guess all you have to do is give it time and pray about it. This is my challenge this summer. Starting June 1st.... :) ......, I am reading the whole bible, everyday, I am going to tackle that sucker, even though my retarded dog ate half of it, (we are not on talking terms right now), I am going to do it, also have quiet time everyday, they say it takes about a month to get in the routine of something, so what I shall do is get my coffee and go sit outside and have my quiet time. I think it is very important , you know, to have quiet time , to clear your mind, to connect with God. I use to go on women's retreats and it was awsome. It was located in palm springs or somewhere with palms and it was such a great mental escape. When you have a day off go hiking, or to the beach, and just sit and think and pray. It will be a good experience and you usually get a break through or you see things different from when you leave.
Do not get frustrated with yourself if you feel like you are going know where. I am struggling with that right now. The industry is quiet right now but it's not just about the industry. What my thoughts are. Go do it! Just go, make your own movie, go take your own pictures, write your own script, make your own T-shirts! Do not wait for someone's approval to say, you got the look, the talent. Who are they? I want to do stand up, yes it freaks me out like a butch lesbian hitting on me, don't get me wrong lesbians are awsome but they scare the crap out of me, anywhoo, go do what your passion is, and sometimes that is when you get discovered by someone, or you get to make new friends, you never know in life, but go do what makes you, you. What is in your heart. You have one shot at life, make it count. I use to sit back and say yeah I could go but I do not want to. Now I do it, I try to embrace as much as possible. Small example, I want to go to a coffee shop and read or have a conversation with someone, but I keep putting it off. I love that, FYI, I will always love to go to a coffee shop and talk with you. About anything.
I also learned something, a life lesson sort of thing, yesterday, when I came home and my special Ed of a dog chewed up everything including my bible, he is officially going to hell now, but any way, I realized after I got upset and was upset at someone for putting him in there. After i felt horrible, that I caused a little bit more emotion than necessary. YEs we can get mad and say things when we are upset but we usually feel like crap after. God wants us to love on people, and maybe I don't want to to a certain person but we all screw up. Including me, I do it all the time, we are human, but what we do after I think defines us a little bit. Those things that he destroyed are replace able except my bible who was from a pastor and was in scripted with a personal message, but hurting someone is harder to fix. And is usually not worth it. You could say well he or she deserved it, o k well when you or I did something bad or horrible , how did it feel when the person showed you mercy. They forgave you, they showed God's grace. I have been a jerk to my Dad so many times but he still loves on me and provides for me and hands down will do anything for me , my mom and my brother, because he loves us, with his whole heart. Having a Dad like that, is the only way I know grace and mercy and Gods love. If I did not have a father such as him, I would not be who I am today.
xoxo, Lady Lorelai
